it's
hard
to
not
feel
so
lonely
when
you
feel
so
very
much
alone

her
teacher
asked
her
what
she
was
thankful
for
and
she
said
her
ipad

the
house
smells
like
pumpkin
bread
and
wine
and
a
little
bit
of
love

I
held
my
baby
blanket
and
meditated
I
loved
the
way
it
smelled

I'm
menstruating
it's
a
new
moon
oh
universe
so
predictable

I
don't
want
to
sleep
tonight
and
I
don't
want
to
wake
in
the
morning

when
I
think
of
you
I
hear
Fleetwood
Mac
the
falling
snow
your
rustling
beard

I
was
just
thinking
of
the
song
bang
bang
but
the
way
cher
does
it
though

I'd
a
fire
going
all
afternoon
'twas
the
coziest
in
the
world

she
wanted
a
sister
a
friend
a
party
buddy
I
was
a
daughter

I'm
still
sad
my
love
that
you
left
my
favorite
wine
key
on
the
train

she
said
love's
a
series
of
positive
actions
she's
someone's
good
friend

I
found
myself
not
saying
anything
at
all
which
is
so
unlike
me

I
wanted
grape
vineyards
and
racing
horses
and
the
fuck
called
me
trite

love
will
keep
us
together
love
will
tear
us
apart
and
so
they
will

house
plants
that
I'd
had
for
years
and
years
died
and
now
I
really
miss
them

there's
a
freckle
on
my
ring
finger
that
my
wedding
band
covers
up

one
death
may
explain
itself
but
it
throws
no
light
upon
another

-e.m. forster, howards end

the
world
is
a
book
and
those
who
do
not
travel
read
only
one
page

-st augustine

the
regulars
brought
together
by
coffee
had
more
in
common
than
that

the
wind
is
knocking
down
the
tree
branches
so
that
I
might
build
a
fire

the
wind
is
howling
rattling
the
windows
trying
to
break
through
the
walls

I
want
to
tour
my
old
childhood
home
but
I'm
afraid
of
what
I'll
find

the
air
was
white
and
when
they
alighted
it
tasted
like
cold
pennies

-e.m. forster, howards end

he
doesn't
know
he
breathes
life
into
me
but
he
does
each
time
he
breathes

she
held
my
arm
as
we
walked
home
last
night
this
began
a
long
friendship

when
I'm
thinking
I'm
thinking
in
words
when
I
dream
I
dream
in
music

mt
st
helens
mt
hood
mt
rainier
the
blue
mountains
the
very
mountain

I
like
my
cat
so
much
better
when
I
think
of
her
as
a
vampire

I
just
broke
up
with
a
friend
it's
the
kind
of
hurt
that
freedom
feels
like

how's
your
book
he
asked
oh
you'd
hate
it
she
said
it's
dreadfully
english

I
imagined
many
poems
while
I
meditated
now
I've
forgot

he
said
imagine
a
comfortable
place
I
imagined
a
mountain

he
has
a
Harley
that
he
never
rides
I
can't
trust
a
man
like
that

you
are
not
powerless
you
have
the
power
that
makes
you
powerful

I
wrote
stories
about
the
photographs
and
imagined
all
their
lives

it's
the
past
a
single-minded
man
eyes
a
complicated
lady

I
remember
singing
all
the
mother
mother
songs
I
was
just
sixteen

it
wasn't
me
the
ghosts
were
after
it
was
me
that
was
after
them

I
thought
maybe
I
should
just
listen
to
Harvest
Moon
with
my
daughter

I'm
a
tiger
a
witch
a
werewolf
not
often
sometimes
a
kitten

my
daughter
and
I
played
in
the
puddles
and
now
we
smell
like
wet
dog

while
she
cleaned
her
room
my
daughter
sang
a
song
about
cleaning
her
room

darling
as
much
as
I
love
you
right
now
I
love
this
poem
much
more

I
stared
at
the
same
poem
for
what
seemed
eternity
to
stare
some
more

I
don't
want
to
hurt
you
anymore
I
love
you
I
keep
hurting
you

take
me
home
tonight
where
it's
warm
take
me
to
your
home
and
keep
me
there

your
momma
don't
dance
and
your
daddy
don't
rock
and
roll
that's
why
you
do

the
cool
long
songs
the
grasses
sing
were
on
the
soundtrack
of
my
childhood

just
wondering
how
it
was
she
undressed
and
got
into
bed
at
night

the
tears
of
this
fall
have
been
very
different
from
the
tears
of
last
fall

I
dreamt
of
my
dad's
mother
when
I
spilt
the
salt
I
thought
of
my
mom's

some
day
some
how
some
way
some
place
some
time
some
girl
some
boy
oh
you'll
see

I
want
to
be
at
his
mercy
oh
I
want
to
feel
vulnerable

one
of
them
easily
breezes
in
the
other's
like
a
tornado

it
was
dark
cold
damp
it
was
fall
some
Amy
Winehouse
was
in
order

baby
you
can
drive
my
car
he
sang
and
I
heard
it
in
my
nipples

this
time
of
year
I
think
of
that
one
horrible
christmas
I
won't
forget

I
had
jealous
dreams
of
her
last
night
but
when
I
woke
she
meant
nothing

there 

are 

darknesses 

in 

life 

and 

there 

are 

lights 

you 

are 

one 

of 

the 

lights 

-Dr. Van Helsing to Mrs. Mina Harker

I
think
of
you
so
when
you're
not
around
I
just
want
to
be
near
you

do
you
want
to
make
life
do
you
want
to
create
do
you
want
to
love

I
lay
in
my
pillows
upon
my
bed
underneath
my
quilts
dreaming

we
read
all
about
Song
Woman
and
Mouse
Woman
and
the
Snee-nee-iq

fullest
full
moon
the
tree
and
its
moss
the
dew
I'll
find
in
the
morning

I'll
give
you
anything
anything
anything
just
marry
me
again

I
was
looking
toward
autumn
but
summer
wasn't
done
with
me
quite
yet

my
aunt
said
the
man
can's
16
ounces
the
woman
can
is
24

I'm
trying
to
write
but
I
keep
thinking
of
the
feather
in
my
hair

daydreams
of
me
wading
through
fields
of
flowers
an
ocean
and
long
grass

it
was
autumn
and
the
leaves
fell
but
I'm
not
ready
to
rake
them
yet

this
is
important
work
I
said
as
I
cleaned
out
the
drain
in
the
sink

why
don't
you
want
to
live
in
this
world
isn't
the
sun
enough
for
you

when
he
sang
all
my
rowdy
friends
have
settled
down
I'm
sure
he
meant
me

in
the
winter
the
days
are
short
in
the
summer
they
are
very
long

the
season's
changing
I
feel
nostalgic
I
want
you
more
than
ever

I
want
you
darling
to
treat
me
like
you
did
the
night
before
forever

how
the
little
moth
the
girls
call
a
butterfly
rested
in
the
bean
leaves

some
old
broken
poems
a
postcard
and
the
sound
of
silence
played

the
baby
sleeps
with
her
whole
body
on
my
head
like
the
cat
would
do

you
pulled
the
covers
back
my
skin
was
warm
on
your
hands
and
I
loved
you

I
thought
about
the
hurt
and
then
I
didn't
think
about
it
anymore

I
don't
know
why
the
clouds
look
better
from
the
middle
of
the
street

the
light
of
the
sun
was
so
weird
tonight
it
hid
behind
the
rain
clouds

I
was
making
dinner
but
I
really
wanted
to
be
writing
poems

she
showed
me
the
photographs
and
I
was
at
once
in
someone
else's
world

seemed
like
the
real
thing
but
I
was
so
blind
mucho
mistrust
love's
gone
behind

-Blondie

all
of
a
sudden
I
wanted
to
take
a
bath
with
all
of
my
clothes
on

it's
about
a
boy
and
girl
and
the
magic
they
conjured
together

he 
used 
words 
like 
cast 
away 
and 
holdfast 
and 
I 
felt 
just
like 
the 
waves

he
said
he
has
moves
like
Jagger
but
that
fool
he
certainly
does
not

my
heart
is
considering
something
far
away
something
it
wants
closer

I
held
her
told
her
she
was
confident
smart
good
she's
still
my
baby

I 
felt 
the 
crows 
hadn't 
cawed 
in 
years 
then 
suddenly 
they 
were 
all 
were 

it 
was 
like 
all 
the 
scenes 
they 
write 
where 
she 
talked 
about 
her 
life 
changing 

so 
much 
is 
on 
my 
mind 
like 
all 
the 
ex-boyfriends 
that 
have 
already 
died 

he 
said 
there's 
a 
sense 
of 
confidence 
in 
sitting 
still 
I 
believe 
that 

I 
visited 
the 
ocean 
today 
and 
something 
there 
made 
me 
feel 
lonely 

it 
was 
that 
wonderful
moment 
of 
silence 
wind 
and 
crickets 
calling 
me

I 

wanted 

to 

lose 

myself 

under 

the 

stars 

at 

night 

and 

not 

come 

back