I've
been
thinking
a
lot
about
this
prison
I'm
in
and
how
to
escape
it's
the
roses
the
anna
akhmatova
and
the
lana
del
rey
the
smoke
rolled
past
her
lips
tube
dress
side
pony
the
summer
suited
her
the
gayle
winehouse
del
rey
of
my
mind
wrote
a
new
song
for
you
today
i
was
determined
to
be
anxious
like
a
doris
lessing
novel
I
kept
writing
haiku
after
haiku
and
quickly
deleting
them
the
sun
in
my
mind
melted
into
something
soft
and
white
and
quite
fine
i
let
myself
feel
that
at
any
moment
i
might
burst
into
light
the
small
winding
road
down
below
the
dike
where
my
grandmother's
house
stood
I
made
love
to
the
fog
was
the
nostalgia
fell
into
their
stories
someone's
iPhone's
getting
texts
and
the
chime
is
ruining
the
music
I
wanted
to
feel
the
way
she
sings
about
the
drinking
of
black
coffee
i
felt
euphoric
like
the
world
was
me
all
of
it
was
inside
me
her
poem
snow
i
keep
thinking
about
it
and
the
way
i
feel
with
snow
the
bottom
of
my
cappuccino
sat
without
me
drinking
it
all
i
wish
i
could
move
away
and
not
come
back
and
not
come
back
again
the
moment
was
auspicious
propitious
but
I
felt
alone
forlorn
you
were
there
two
worlds
collided
and
they
could
never
tear
us
apart
-inxs
i
need
something
to
keep
me
hanging
on
so
I
think
of
your
tanned
skin
oh
darling
do
tell
them
the
story
again
it's
one
of
my
favorites
the
way
I
think
of
it
now
isn't
the
way
I
thought
of
it
back
then
why
did
he
put
on
that
Waylon
record
did
he
want
to
break
my
heart
if
you
woke
me
up
with
a
passionate
kiss
I
wouldn't
be
upset
she
sang
mazzy
star
her
voice
was
epic
space
it's
strange
I
never
knew
I'm
taking
pictures
of
my
kids
and
they're
taking
pics
of
Spain
I
miss
Spain
it
was
kathryn
beaumont's
voice
like
the
air
right
off
the
daisy's
petals
oh
hello
how
are
you
it's
been
a
long
time
anything
new
with
you
you
made
me
forget
myself
I
thought
I
was
someone
else
someone
good
- Lou Reed
I
wished
that
my
long
hair
was
longer
so
that
I
might
hide
behind
it
the
xanax
incident
where
we
took
too
many
and
slept
for
three
days
my
love
is
like
a
see
saw
baby
thank
you
for
staying
on
the
ride
the
train
slowed
and
I
knew
if
I
got
on
I
couldn't
never
get
off
you
must
be
my
muse
you're
the
only
thing
I
want
to
write
about
I
love
your
face
I
could
look
at
you
forever
and
never
get
enough
the
light
that
shines
from
your
eyes
sometimes
overwhelms
me
and
I
can't
see
he
made
me
feel
like
the
sun
the
breeze
all
the
better
parts
of
a
day
the
audience
watched
I
read
my
poems
my
daughter
peed
on
my
shoes
a
sail
boat
on
the
upper
bay
of
the
hudson
the
skyscrapers
behind
it's
the
roses
they
call
garden
party
I
think
Jackie
O
would
love
them
why
did
the
poop
cross
the
road
because
it
was
inside
of
the
chicken
-sean & emily
today
his
grey
hairs
stood
out
whispering
to
me
his
gentle
future
I
thought
about
how
I
might
hold
him
when
he
comes
home
I
miss
his
arms
by
the
sea
stars
of
your
love
reclining
on
the
heart
waves
of
your
kiss
I
thought
I'd
remember
his
pale
skin
as
he
was
dying
but
I
don't
let's
make
love
I'll
be
Elizabeth
Hardwick
you
can
be
Robert
Lowell
