I
lay
in
my
qiuet
bed
hearing
his
sounds
footsteps
grinding
coffee

the
wind
is
when
i
remember
my
heart
felt
the
sky
and
i
was
high

smells 

from 

the 

kitchen 

intoxicating 

me 

making 

me 

wish 

you 

were 

here

it
was
cold
today
yet
still
somewhere
in
the
world
a
flower's
blooming

'twas
the
worst
martini
I've
ever
had
but
'mongst
the
best
company

when
my
rings
fall
loose
on
my
finger
and
the
jewel
I
feel
on
my
palm

blue
jeans
white
shirt
walked
into
the
room
you
know
you
made
my
eyes
burn

-lana del rey

chicago
was
playing
in
the
cafe
and
he
knew
every
word

something
about
the
way
I
feel
when
I
sit
in
the
sun
or
hear
the
rain

I 

love 

the 

way 

you 

taste

and 

smell

and 

think 

and 

breathe 

and 

sound 

and 

feel 

are 

her
mystery
was
in
her
sharp
features
and
her
severe
expressions

the
sun
behind
the
clouds
shedding
rays
of
light
like
there's
a
god
up
there

just
tell
me
to
hush
my
pretty
mouth
then
take
me
and
don't
let
me
choose

she
said
only
the
lonely
are
free
true
still
I'd
rather
be
trapped
with
you

for
some
love
is
a
battlefield
for
us
it's
more
like
a
dance
floor

I'm
a
woodland
witch
my
home
is
in
the
forest
near
the
mountain

when
he
calls
him
my
old
man
I
feel
in
place
just
one
of
my
favorite
things

I
kept
your
note
out
on
the
kitchen
table
the
whole
week
you'd
been
gone

like
looking
at
fire
I
listened
to
your
three
second
voice
mail
again

i
took
my
ring
off
to
clean
it
i
didn't
like
the
way
my
finger
felt

I
can't
love
you
more
than
I
do
my
heart
might
break
into
pieces
one
two

the
moon's
ablaze
with
light
behind
pink
clouds
bright
orange
leaves
blow
through
the
gorge

it
was
a
windy
howlin'
moon
over
her
majesty
the
mountain

death
was
on
my
heart
I
couldn't
be
alone
I
sought
out
the
river

I'm
missing
the
spiral
staircase
the
bar
stools
that
flowered
couch
so
much

is
it
the
end
and
how
do
i
know
i
need
to
be
prepared
tell
me
so

I'll
paint
you
a
green
picture
of
the
sea
the
moon
some
trees
and
their
leaves

shea
said
emotions
were
like
the
weather
and
with
that
she'd
told
my
whole
life

it's
hard
to
describe
the
meaning
this
road
and
the
cassette
tape
have
for
me

my
childhood
was
in
the
sky
above
me
my
future
somewhere
in
the
land

we
watched
the
river
she
saw
the
moss
the
mud
I
saw
rocks
the
ripple
breeze

somebody
tell
me
a
poem
please
somebody
tell
me
a
poem

the
sky
let
me
down
tonight
it
was
there
then
it
wasn't
now
it's
cold

their
eyes
exchanged
meaningful
glances
but
he
didn't
like
her
meaning

classic
timeless
forever
cool
eternal
life
never
no
always
yes

to
hear
my
daughter
sing
let
it
go
you'd
think
angels
were
sighing

and
then
he
came
home
to
me
and
I
didn't
have
to
miss
him
anymore

like
a
birthday
or
a
pretty
view
something
we
can
all
relate
to

we
were
young
fresh
you
wrestled
me
on
the
video
poker
at
sandy
hut

i
caught
up
on
my
soap
today
i
feel
like
i
did
something
good

the
world
was
grey
and
slow
and
low
i
wanted
to
move
in
with
the
night

drunken
ira
hayes
coffee
sassy
friday
convos
that
was
about
it

the
sun
touched
the
moon
and
it
was
pink
with
that
one
star
right
next
to
it

there
were
so
many
things
running
through
her
mind
he
saw
them
all
in
her
eyes

she
said
come
here
ghost
and
then
they
did
a
slow
sultry
dance
together

am
i
losing
my
grip
on
you
poem
are
we
old
lovers
breaking
up

there
was
something
romantic
in
the
cheap
wine
and
the
way
the
sky
smelled

she
felt
delicious
sitting
beside
him
their
legs
touching
each
other's

I 

watched 

them 

look 

at 

each 

other's 

eyes 

and 

I 

hoped 

they 

would 

fall 

in 

love 

we'll
miss
you
my
king
on
your
journey
be
safe
and
come
home
to
us

I
want
to
be
your
muse
I
want
you
to
tell
me
I'm
the
only
one

I
wanted
all
my
poems
to
be
about
our
tender
kisses
and
your
legs

they
were
the
last
rose
blooms
of
the
season
but
how
could
I
have
known

i
didn't
want
to
be
at
the
party
i
wanted
to
be
naked

i'm
cursed
with
this
big
golden
heart
of
mine
with
all
its
love
inside
it

i
admired
his
legs
and
thought
in
mmmm's
and
aaaah's
how
i'd
write
his
book

I'll
lay
down
beside
you
knowing
you're
beside
me
right
where
you
should
be

let's
feel
like
our
honeymoon
baby
just
you
and
me
on
spanish
sky

she
said
the
feelings
washed
her
then
burst
through
her
like
she'd
been
baptized
in
love

I
walked
around
my
old
haunt
and
knew
then
why
they
called
it
an
old
haunt

got
some
weed
from
the
weed
store
it
was
a
saturday
park
date
with
myself

I
haven't
written
not
because
I
don't
love
you
don't
ever
think
that

I
always
feel
so
good
beside
him
I
just
feel
so
good
beside
him

he
had
a
flattened
cigarette
and
a
half
cup
of
cold
black
coffee

I'm 

ready 

for 

it 

to 

be 

hard 

to 

fall 

from 

very 

high

and 

never 

stop 

every
time
the
wicked
witch
of
the
west
melts
my
heart
breaks
a
little

the
sun
was
sunny
the
shade
shady
the
grass
grassy
it
was
the
best

every
time
i
see
a
u-haul
trailer
i
think
of
my
idaho

his
fall
flowers
are
blooming
but
he
hasn't
been
home
to
see
them

come
as
you
are
as
a
friend
as
an
old
enemy
i
felt
that
hard

the
clouds
were
white
our
smiles
were
bright
we
were
making
it
in
the
world

we
got
married
that
day
in
reno
nevada
the
road
was
paved
with
ice

the
girl
leaned
over
to
hold
her
boy
and
i
could
feel
your
warm
chest
on
mine

could
we
be
vampires
my
love
i
want
to
love
you
for
a
million
years

I've
yet
to
kiss
him
hard
in
the
pouring
rain
and
it
rains
here
all
the
time

when
the
rains
came
I
wasn't
ready
for
it
I
didn't
know
what
to
do

have
I
ever
told
you
how
much
I
love
my
soap
opera
well
I
do

she
asked
why
a
magnet
works
the
way
it
does
and
i
thought
of
our
two
hearts

we
sang
to
each
other
we
drank
we
laughed
we
were
so
merry
that
day

i 

pass 

the 

jubitz 

truck 

stop 

and 

think 

of 

the 

time 

we 

met 

there 

for 

iced 

tea

the 

hottest 

fall 

feeling 

like 

I 

do 

and 

it's 

gonna 

come 

out 

tonight 

is
that
all
there
is
like
she
sings
in
that
song
yes
you
know
how
I
feel

the
street
lamp
reminds
me
of
my
father
and
the
stars
over
the
dike

he
disliked
it
when
I
would
use
the
butt
of
my
lighter
on
the
bowl

he's
my
muse
'cause
of
the
way
he
makes
his
coffee
how
he
draws
his
lines

driving
in
the
sun
we
sang
frozen
songs
at
the
top
of
our
lungs

those
seeds
the
ones
the
girls
call
fairies
floated
about
like
a
family

they 

were 

sweet 

under 

the 

tree 

looking 

at 

each 

other 

feeling 

like 

sky 

it
made
my
heart
sing
my
chest
cry
it
was
all
pushing
out
of
me
at
once

like
alice
when
she
wakes
I
lay
in
the
shade
slowly
loving
my
life

I
can
tell
he
loves
me
by
the
look
in
his
eye
the
taste
of
his
kiss

nobody
comes
between
me
and
my
man
not
even
you
dream
woman

I
watched
their
bodies
and
hoped
she'd
reach
under
the
table
and
jerk
him
off

I'm
so
proud
of
you
my
love
I
kissed
your
book
I
love
you
husband

but
only
love
can
break
your
heart
yes
only
love
can
break
your
heart

-neil young

to
that
guy
walking
while
taking
a
selfie
you
look
good
boy
you
do

I
like
watching
the
boy
with
the
blue
hair
do
tai
chi
on
the
playground

high
fives
all
through
the
cold
dark
night
and
into
the
wee
hours
of
the
morn

what
can
I
tell
you
about
the
moon
that
I
haven't
already
said

your
arrogance
floats
about
you
I
feel
your
sadness
I
sit
far
away